after i came back from my trip i felt sooooo freee and soooo happy. "traveling is therapy!" says emily. but i really just think it had a lot to do with my family. ive never been so satisfied with the people in my life. ive never been so so so grateful. even though we fight a lot, there are moments where i get so touched. im the luckiest girl ever.
recently though, ive been trippin. ive had a lot of fun hanging out with friends again. but for some reason i feel more lonely after hanging out with my friends than being alone with just my family. i slept all day today, and i had flu-like symptoms like i always do when i come down with the sad-ness-ia. my head hurt sooo bad i turned up the air so that it was freeezing in my room. and i just slept and slept and slept. i even missed the new episode of queen bees. my dad called me a billion times to come down and watch the olympics and i was like NO I DONT WANT TO. and hes like i havent see you all day! come down! and i wasnt going to but i couldnt fall asleep anyway and i got kind of angry after a phonecall and i cried. it has been so long since i cried. after that i went downstairs and watched the olympics opening ceremony with my cousin sister mom and dad and hanging out with them made me feeel sooooo much better. and now i know exactly what ive been missing. and im not so caught up in this smalll bubbble only looking 2 feet in front of me. I AM SO SICK OF DRAMA i dont even want to hear about it from friends. everything sounds so ridiculously stupid and pointless to me after traveling


im sorry youre going through this but i dont know if its my job anymore to care for you